This past month has been one of marked changes for me. Moving from my house, which I could no longer afford, to a one bedroom aprtment (which I think I actually prefer)combined with accepting a new postion at work at a new high volume restaurant, I have honestly never felt more under pressure than this. The enormity of the month has just been stifling. Add in Christmas and New Years and a much welcomed visit from my Dad, I feel like today is teh first time in a long time I have had to collect my thoughts.
As often, I thought about how alone I have felt this past month, not having someone to share my frustrations with, and worse yet, boxing up these feelings and not expressing them. I even turned away from my blog, turned away from the only form of expression I have often felt I have had left. This year I have one simple goal, one resolution to hold myself too. Change. I want to change how I feel about myself, how I feel about my accomplishments, and how I fit into the world around me. Change doesn't necessarily mean giving up things, and this blog is certainly something i don't want to give up on. I am going to change what I think about on this blog, taking it away from movies and popular culture moments, and focus more on my actual writing. I want to write about things I am passionate about. And while that may mean old school movie reviews or blogging about my travels, I don't want to confine myself to a certain output a month. I will make one promise. I will finish Under a Dead Sun: Past Sins this year. We are about halfway through the story at this point, and I will be posting a summary chapter this week before diving back into the narrative.
2011 lays ahead of me in a endless path of possibility, I need but take the first step of a greater journey. I greet the future today, my eyes to the rising sun, the cold breeze of dusk at my back, the bold unknown lying ahead.
End of Line.